Have you ever just felt defeated and you couldn’t figure out why because nothing specific had happened.

I did.

I started blogging a little over 2 years ago.

It has been a whirlwind.

I’m constantly learning.

You’d think there’d only be so much to learn then I’d be set.

But no! It’s always changing and that’s on top of the foundational things I didn’t know to start with.

There’s content, ads, marketing, social media, editing, proofreading, photo taking, photo editing, just on and on.

It’s mind blowing really, at least to me.

Ok, so anyways- that’s 2 years with not very much activity from others as far as social media or blog post engagement.

Then boom.

Things just start clicking.

You know why?


Some things have happened lately that required my obedience.

Maybe I shouldn’t say lately, the things have been weeks, months and years in the making.

I attended a party where a person is that I should have apologized to months ago.

I went to that same party, alone. That’s something I never do. NEVER. I’m too awkward and hateee, hateeee, hattteee group focused attention on myself. But I went anyway.

So then, something, I can’t be specific right now, maybe in 10 years I can, but something that was just off limits for me, no not maritally or sexually, but relationship-wise, happened. God put something on my heart that I said no to for a couple of weeks, something that I was sure I had understood wrong from Him. I did what I heard to do in spite of my own feelings towards it or the person. God has blessed me tenfold since (no, not with a baby, yet).

Then, a few months ago, I become friends via Instagram with a great person, that lives half the US away from me, but could not have become more than just my fellow IG’er at a better time. We connected over home decor, but really became friends over our infertility struggles. She, without even knowing, connected me to another gal, who has given me an opportunity that just sends me to the moon with excitement.

Then, I have connected with others face-to-face over the home design and infertility sides of my blog- it’s amazing. You never know how much you have in common with others until you’re obedience and willing to be vulnerable.

I recently read the book “Wait and See” by Wendy Pope. In the book she reiterates time and time again to “stay in your pasture, feed your own sheep, work out your salvation, move when He says move, and never exchange the object of your wait for the person of your faith”.

I’m trying to live this out day-by-day.

I hope this makes sense, I feel like I’m rambling.

My point is obey God! Even especially when it goes against what you would normally do. Maybe I should say especially when it goes against what you would normally do.


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