For this weeks’ Momma Heart Monday, I thought I would update you on our fertility journey.
I know, it’s not Monday, but this was a holiday week, so exceptions had to be made.
If you follow me on Instagram [here] you’ll see more updates that I put on my blog, but nevertheless, I do want you guys to know what’s up.
So, we just finished the 2nd round of Clomid with a BFN [big fat negative]. It’s a little more disheartening every time. For the first 2 years of this journey, we wanted babies and tried as far as not using any form of birth control, but then we decided to get more serious about it, so I’ve been charting my BBT [basal body temperature] and taking Provera [to induce a period, I don’t have one right now naturally] and Clomid [to stimulate ovulation]. When we got more serious, each BFN became more discouraging.
From a faith standpoint, the BFNs being discouraging is so short-sited. A verse I’ve been pondering on for quite some time now is 1 Peter 4:12 & 13
“12 Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange things happened unto you: 13 But rejoice, inasmuch as ye are partakers of Christ’s sufferings; that, when his glory shall be revealed, ye may be glad also with exceeding joy.”
This brings me so so much peace. I am so thankful that God treats me in part like he treated Jesus. How amazing?! As much as I just want a beautiful, chubby, slobbery little blob of love to hold, I am also grateful for what God has done in my life. [Check out my other infertility posts for more on that].
So, we’re going to do another round of Clomid 50mg. I have a doctor’s appointment in July. If you have any tips for anything else they can check for, I’d love to hear them. After I see him in July, I think the plan is to bump up the milligrams for the next round.
Do any of you have trouble tracking your cycles when taking Clomid? Mine are all off, I think I have it narrowed down to when it is, but I’m not absolutely sure.
Can I divulge a secret? I’m praying for twins. I know I should be content praying for one baby, and I am, but I honestly feel led toward praying for twinsies! I just want to throw that out there. I feel like the things we pray for, even if we don’t get exactly what we pray for, come full circle. So, I want to share my secrets here so when I get the answer, whether it’s the same or something better, I can reference this and we’ll all see the connection.
I have a prayer list I keep updated with the name of girls in this infertility stage of life, it’s just for me, I don’t share it on here or social media. If I can pray for you, please send me some info, like name and your specific prayer, to my email [here], Instagram message [here], Facebook message [here].
I am so glad to be part of the ttc [trying to conceive] community on Instagram. If you’re in the same place in life, go check it out- it’s so helpful!
Thanks for reading!